Magical Hiatus

hiatus.ovah.

I forgot that I’m supposed to focus on my brain, not on my face. I’ve been too conscious.

I’ve been so busy trying to “pretty-fy” myself. It scared me. Who I am becoming scared me. Because its not the “me” that I know.

I forgot that I’m on a diet because I want to discipline myself and losing weight only follows after that. I’ve been too lax.

Seriously. I annoy myself. Jelly beans, Nutella, Junk Foods. Round two of rice. WTHell. I gotta discipline myself.lol.

I forgot that I ain’t a rich kid and that I must save. I’ve been overspending since last month.

Like WHATDAFOOK. I’ll have like P3k today, and then be totally broke the next day. :| Damnit.

I forgot that I must do what is right not what I want. Not because its right and I must do the right thing, but because don’t want the consequences. I won’t be able to face the risks.

I’ve always been a risk-taker. But not this time. Not on that field. I think, I just got overexcited. Its not worth it, so quit it.

I forgot that even if Im not the most patient person ever, I must try and wait. I must wait. I’ve been thinking and stressing over a certain part of mi life.lol.

What happened to the “Im-happily-single” me? I was so bothered. Damntoofuckingbothered. I’d wallow over my ex. I’ll rant about those two guys. Its stupid.

I forgot that in this time of my life, I’m supposed to be studying. I’ve been too irresponsible.

What the hell was I thinking? Passing half-baked papers?! Not understanding what I was reading. What the hell. :|

Its time to gather myself and get it back on the track. :D I’ll be there, soon enough.

I’ll be back. ;)

• January 10, 2010, 5:50am

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